Why I Went Missing: My Fallout with Blogging

Hi Everyone,

I know it has been quite some time since I last posted something here. I remember the last time I tried to start writing again, but unfortunately I failed. I guess I have been busy with work and everything around me that I wasn't able to put blogging as one of my priorities. I feel regretful for I have failed to continue writing for quite some time. Writing has been one of my interests ever since I was young. Don't get me wrong, this blog is still important to me, it's just that I don't know how to fit it in my busy work schedule, or at least that' what I keep telling myself.

I believe in the saying "If there's a will, there's a way", but I guess I didn't want to write/blog enough for me to actually try. I can say I had a fall out with blogging. I felt as if I didn't have the heart to create something. I have so many things I want to share, and so many things I want to talk about, but I didn't. I dwelled on the excuse that I had too much going on, but in reality, I can squeeze in a blog post once in a while.

I believe I've lost touch, with my writer side. I think I've forgotten why I started blogging in the first place. I noticed how I wanted to showcase a specific item, book or food for the sake of getting more readers, instead of sharing that particular thing because I want to. I got pulled into this blackhole where getting more views was more important than actually sharing my opinions. I didn't even write as much as I wanted to say because I feared people would think it was too long. I lost my way. I got off track. I forgot the reason I started blogging in the first place, My love for sharing my opinions with the world.

Blogging was my outlet. If I wanted to express how I felt regarding a particular book, I would elaborate by making a blog post. If I wanted to express how I felt regarding a certain dish, I would share how I felt through writing a blog post. It made me happy to write and share about my experiences.

Over these last few months I've started feeling the itch to write again. I wanted to write again, but this time, hopefully I will stop looking at the views and start focusing on how I want to share my experiences. Don't get me wrong, I also love writing for my readers, knowing they are interested in what I write. It's just that I won't focus on the number of views I get for the things I share. I cannot promise you my posts will be consistent again, as I will still try to work out how I will squeeze in writing with my work schedule, but I will try.

I would like to thank everyone who stayed with me and checked my blog even though it has been dormant for a long time. I hope you will continue to read and check out my posts in the future. Also, I would like to share that I will be writing some posts where I will write how I feel and my daily experiences. Yes you read that right, I will be writing about my life and daily experiences. Although, if you are not interested in this and is more/only interested in the items I share, I don't mind. Don't worry, you will be able to pick which ones to read and not read anyway. By the way, I apologise if this post was sort of all over the place. I'm just blurting out everything I feel and think.

I guess this is it for now. Thank you for reading this far down and I hope you check out my blog again soon!

Note: I will be doing some changes regarding the layout and template soon <3 p="">
Xoxo
-J Publisher: Unknown - 7:58 AM

New Contributor: Denkai Aisato

Hello Everyone!

I'm very excited to announce that there will be another contributor in this blog. He is my real life younger brother and he will be writing about games and a few books. I thought it will be a great way to train him in writing English articles.

He wanted to introduce himself to your guys!

"Hello there
I, Denkai Aisato, will show you the amazing world of Gaming. I'm a new writer in this site and i hope
that you'll check out what I have instore for you guys. I would mostly write about indie games or games that have small communities. Sometimes I would post triple A games like Call of Duty or Final Fantasy. I will be showing you something different from the mainstream games that you see.
I will be showing you different game genres from multiplayer,rpg,retro,etc. On some occasions I will be posting about manga,manhwa and some other books. See you then!"

I just wanted to introduce him to you guys! More posts two come! I hope you'll support his posts as you have supported mine.

Here's a cake to celebrate!

Thanks for reading!

-J

Publisher: Unknown - 9:17 PM

World Environment Day

Hi Everyone!

I was not going to publish any more posts till I finish editing the blog, but I wanted to share something I believe in. I wanted to share something that I think people should take more notice of.

Whether we accept it or not climate change is happening and we have the power

I know it may be a little late, but I wanted to write about the World Environment Day. According to UN.org this is celebrated every June 5th. This day is supposed to raise global awareness to take steps, no matter how big or how small, to protect and conserve the environment.

I look at this photo and feel blessed for living somewhere that sustains my needs. I feel blessed because the planet I live in is filled with such beauty. I feel blessed because I get to see the vast array of plant and animal species the Earth has to offer.

Since my post is about World Environment day, I wanted to share photos that capture the beauty of our planet:

I just love how each photo is vibrant and filled with life. The World Environment Day is something that should be celebrated every day, not just one day a year.It's something that people should take notice of. The earth is  still beautiful, but not as beautiful as it was years ago. Just look at the following before and after photos.

 Image: Before and After: Himalayas from "http://communicationleadership.usc.edu/blog/filmmaker_david_breashears_climate_change_evident_even_on_everest.html"

Image: Before and After: Tar Sand Exploration from "http://www.dailykos.com/story/2011/08/18/1008331/-Join-me-to-Protest-the-Keystone-XL-Pipeline"

I've read both articles and I am saddened at what is happening. When will we wake up from the illusion that there is nothing drastic happening to our planet? Will people continue to act blind? Every day, we lose time, time that is essential for us to change something, to stop this. I've created a short poem that you may or may not like. I wanted to express my thoughts in a different manner.

 Every day

Every day, we cause more pollution,

will we ever stop?

Every day, we cause further damage,

how far can we go?

Every day, we find no solution,

are we all doomed?

Every day, we all face the challenge,

can we stop climate change?

will you stop climate change?

yes? no? maybe? which one is it?

Every day, we hear people say they will change the world,

do they mean for the better or for the worse?

Every day, we hear people promise that they'll take a stand,

are they actually doing it?

Every day, we see people act like they care,

do they really?

Every day, we see people who do not care,

ignorance is bliss

Every day, it's like we're asking for more natural disasters,

is this what we want?

Every day, we ignore nature's cry for help,

until when can we act deaf?

Every day, we take and take from what's left of nature,

how long will it last?

Every day, we slowly kill mother earth,

do you even care?

I sit here and wonder when will the people wake up? When there are mountains and mountains of trash everywhere?

When there is nothing but drought?

When we no longer have no clean water? 

When the Children are left hungry because we've destroyed the environment? 

Image by Army Amber from Pixabay

Or when Natural Disasters run rampant and destroy our cities and take millions of lives?






What kind of Earth will the next generation see? What kind of Earth will your children live in?

What can we do to help the environment? Stopping climate change and saving the planet is no easy task to do. I know that the usual thing people say is we all should individually do the "little things". I've heard seminar speakers say it, I heard political candidates say it, I heard teachers say it, I heard my mom say it, I heard almost every one say it. The thing is, no matter how little we think of it, if we all do it together, it becomes one big solution to a big problem. The problem lies in us though. Will we do it? Will we all try and save the planet? Or will people treat them like new year resolutions and forget about them after a few days? 

Maybe.... just maybe, we can do something worthwhile if you're up to it. 

I've stumbled upon www.unep.com. They have something called the WED Challenge where you pick a team and pledge to do something to help the environment.

 There are four teams which consist of:

Team Don: "Get on Board and Power Down"

Team Gisele: "Reduce your Food Print"

Team Ian: "Connect to Go Greener"

Team Yaya: "Purge Plastics"

I decided to create small pledges to all the teams... (even forgot I used my main email address in the first one)

After you click the Make your pledge button, you'll see this:

Then... this happened to the last one:

I don't know why it happened. The purpose of the website is to raise awareness. I think it was created so that people would feel inspired to do something themselves, no matter how small their pledge is. If something like this happens to you, then it's okay. The important thing is not creating a pledge on a website. The important thing is you are promising yourself something, no matter how small it is, that will help the environment. 

I plan on following through with my pledges and I will probably make another post about it in the future. It will be something like an update on what I'm doing. I hope you could join me in doing small pledges. We can make a difference if we try. 

I really wasn't sure how I'd make this post. Somehow, I made it this far. I started with feeling appreciative of our planet and ended with a pledge that I will do something to help the environment. I hope you enjoyed reading. 

After all this, will you do something to help? 

PS: A quick thumbs up to Army Amber who has taken a photograph I have above. She posted them on pixabay which have free photos people could use. Her photos enthralled me, which is why I thought I'd give her a special mention. Like what one of the photo's comments said "I enjoy how your pictures captivate the feeling of the children"(From: Curtisana).  I really do. Thanks for uploading beautiful photos Amber ♥

♥ J

Publisher: Unknown - 5:27 AM

Announcement

Hi Everyone!

I am still in the process of editing my blog. I am trying my best to make it look the way I want it to look. I am also trying to add several features onto it which I'm finding a bit hard because I'm also editing the html code. I have several posts on hold because I wanted to finish the layout of the blog first before I start posting again, to make it easier whenever I edit the labels and such. If you noticed, I've put in a section for fashion, lifestyle, games, events and more. I want to expand the topics I write about. I want to share more of my experiences with you guys. I hope you enjoy them as much as I enjoy making them.

I am doing my best to finish the blog as soon as possible and I hope you can bear with me. I can't work on the site for the whole day because I also have other things to do. I hope you understand.  I am trying to live my life to the fullest by doing the things that make me happy. This is one of the things that do and I am working on it.

I made Book, Movie, Food, and Game Reviews which will all be posted soon. If you haven't already, follow me via email, google+ and/or google itself to be notified when I am done. Thank you for checking this out and I hope you come back soon for more. Toodles xo~

<3 -J Publisher: Unknown - 6:52 AM

Adventures of an Intern: 7 Things you Learn

Hello Lovelies! As promised, I bring you my work post which will be about what I am doing for the summer. An internship is one of our school's requirements in order to graduate. I both loved and hated the fact that I will be working while its summer vacation. This will be the last summer break I'll be experiencing which is why it is important for me to enjoy it. I am ecstatic that I will be leaving school soon and I will be off to earn actual money to sustain myself, but it also terrifies me to leave university and be on the path to adulthood. I am worried about employment right after college. I wouldn't really have the work experience most companies look for, but how exactly will I earn that experience if they don't try to hire me? College is my comfort zone. It's easy to create friends, I can procrastinate if I don't feel like doing anything and I can have a little fun. I have always been confident, at least I think I have and now that I am near the end of this chapter of my life, I am actually scared of not becoming the person I want to be. I am scared of not fulfilling my dreams. There are so many things that both terrify and excite me about going to and leaving university, but that's another topic for another post. For now, let me tell you a little about my internship.

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I will be working for a car company in the Sales Department. I am assigned to work in the Sales Information and Process Management Division. I will mostly be doing admin. work which I pretty much expected. We were told that we aren't to be given the important work because there are people assigned and fully paid to do them. Those types of work would also require extra care because the department handles obviously the sales and the incentives given to the dealers. Basically, we are to photocopy, sort and arrange documents, scan files, encode, etc. I also can't give you much detail since we are to maintain confidentiality of data. Anyway I think you get the gist of the work I'll be doing.

There are several things I've thought of and felt in my stay there, which are:

1. The Fear of the unknown. My first day sort of terrified me because I don't really know the type of work I'll be doing. I've expected a lot of admin. work, even though I did want to help out on some projects and be able to brainstorm with the team. The fear of the unknown had me that first day. Being me, I want to help out and do something great with my life. Before I end my internship I'd like to feel like I actually did something to help the company.

2. Work Overload. I started off not having much to do. I always ask if there is anything they'd like me to do. I have this mind that tells me to keep asking for work when I don't have anything to do. Does it mean I like doing what I do? Am I just trying to keep myself busy not to get bored? Or am I just trying to make the most out of the day? I don't know but I like it. I like keeping myself busy and working in a fast paced environment. After a few days, I've been getting tons of work to do and I no longer know if I should be happy because I can keep myself busy and not feel the time pass by or be a little sad because I'll be tired and I'll probably get more paper cuts. Apparently, I've been getting a lot of paper cuts from handling the documents, and it's not fun at all. I hate getting them, but I can't seem to avoid them. I try to be careful with the papers, but it's like I'm a paper cut magnet.

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3. It's important to love what you do. I saw this little note which was attached to the CPU of the computer I've been using. I thought the quote was very fitting for me because I always try to love what I do, no matter what it is I learn to enjoy doing it. If I did not I would be dreading doing it for the whole day. I'd probably even think of it at night asking myself "Why am I not doing what I love?". I have this issue where I'd like to do what I enjoy doing and if I don't I'd instantly feel like I am wasting my life. I don't want to waste my time doing something that does not interest me at all.

At work, I am not fond of photocopying documents. Back when my friend and I were still looking for companies to apply to, there were a few companies we didn't want to apply to because we were told the interns were only asked to photocopy documents, and now I am asked to do just that. I can't do anything about it, but to endure doing it. I always tell myself that we can't always get what we want. There are some tasks that must be done and I am still just an intern, so if I am told to do it, I would have to do it. My grades rely on the work I do, which is why I have to do great work even if its just photocopying. If I photocopy documents the whole day, the following day I'd feel like the meme below that just doesn't want to go to work. I somehow always get that out of my mind though when I think of what I want to accomplish in my life. I can't let simple tasks get me down. No matter how much I don't like it, I have other things I'll be doing which I will actually like and the it won't make me feel like it was a waste of time.

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I would like to stress out the important things these little things do. If you did not have a photocopy of a document you were to send out, let's say a Certificate of some sort for registration, you would not have your receiving copy for proof that it has been sent and it wasn't your fault if ever it gets lost. If you didn't have people to arrange your documents, it would be a disaster if you are trying to look for an important file. You get what I mean?

4. It's important to have a lot of patience. Let's say you do not love the work you do, or you do, but there's too much work to be done, I can't explain enough the importance of patience. We all have to suck it in sometimes and just do what we have to. There will be tasks you would not like, even hate, but you would have to do it. Just do what you have to and be like

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when you get out of work. Tomorrow shouldn't be so bad, always think positive. If it is,and you hate what you do, maybe it is about time you think twice about your work. 

5. Work Smart. The meme says it all. Sometimes its better to find the easy or smart way of doing something instead of just doubling your efforts. Think of how much time and effort you'll not be exerting if you think before you act.

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6. Salary, or in my case, allowance money. Is this not the reason you've been working? you don't really work just because you love your work, and you just want to do what you love, but because the company is giving you something in return for the work you've done. May it be money, benefits or experience for your resume, you get something back. We all have to sustain ourselves and we do it with money. If you are a fresh graduate, you may endure bad work for experience to get better work, or if you are like me and you need experience to be able to graduate and get grades [because internship is graded]. Honestly, will you work for free? Spend 8 hours doing things your boss tells you to do just because?

Another thing, I've heard there are companies that say this meme a lot:

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Oh I really hope it does not happen to me. We were told that if we do good work, the company usually offers the graduates work right before you graduate which will be convenient. We were not told that we are to get a good salary, but I already expected it. If you just graduated I don't really think you could expect much. I feel sorry for people who are told this meme to though.

7. Not Enough Time for Me. At the end of the day, I always notice that it's usually too late to do some "me time". I get off at around 5, sometimes past five because I still have work to finish and I'll probably be home after 30 minutes. The gym I go to will be closed by the time I get there and I'll be too tired to care. I told myself I'll be working out more often, but I can't seem to do it when I have work the next day. I'd like to work out and live healthy, but it is too hard when lunch consists of eating at fast food places which are the only stores near the office and I can't work out after work because the gym would be closed and it will be too dark or late to jog in the park. I also find it hard to blog at night because I'd be exhausted and the only thing I'd like to do is watch a few Youtube videos and go to bed.

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There are so many things I'd like to do before I graduate and start to work, and I'm scared I'll spend my life inside an office I don't like and I'll be doing work I don't want, which is why I'll be doing Project Me.This project will consist of me trying my dreams and living out my life. I realized how important creativity is for me and I wish to try out several things like writing a book, creating Youtube videos, continuing my blog posts and designing clothes. I refuse to live my life not doing what I want. I want to travel the world! I want to see what every country has to offer. I am not entirely sure what my plan will be, but I do know it will make me happy. If you are like me and you aren't sure what you'll be doing yet, don't fret and take things one step at a time. It's scary to leave your comfort zone, but you'll find something that will help you see the brighter side of the day and help you get through the hard times to be able to fulfill all of your dreams. Dream Big, Fly High. [I don't know if someone already said that but I like it, if someone has, kudos to the creator]


Note: I'll probably make this a series. I think it has a nice ring to it "Adventures of an Intern". If you liked my post, please subscribe or follow me with your google account. That's all for now, thank you for reading and I'll see you soon. Publisher: Unknown - 6:59 PM

My First Book~ My Thoughts

Hi guys!

I know I haven't blogged in a while. I apologize. I have been so busy with real life that I barely had time to log on. I just finished my final examinations and so here I am again! Yay! Anyway, since I've just gotten back, I haven't really been able to finish any new books to review. I do plan to create one though. Has anyone ever read so many books that you've thought of creating one yourself? Well, I have. I've recently decided to finally put on paper, in this case Microsoft Word, a story that has been playing around my mind a lot. I don't know how many people would be able to read this cause I've been out from the blog for a long time, but do you guys like inspirational books? Those books that still have a little romance, but the focus of the story is on self improvement and/or development? Well that's the book I plan to create.

I have been working on my story when I realized several things:

1. It's difficult to complete a draft. I tried to put together the chapters I have in mind, what I'd like to happen in those chapters and some events or lessons I want the chapters to show. I found out that it was a very difficult task. It's the time you try to put together everything you want to happen, no matter how vague the events are. I feel like most of the time, I have so many things I want to put it that it would be too long, even though I was planning on making it as short as it could be, but as entertaining and interesting as I could. I don't want to write something too long, readers would not want to actually finish it.

2. It's tiring to check if it's grammatically correct. One thing I enjoy about blogging is how free I could be with the format, the language, pretty much everything. I don't always check my whole post for incorrect grammar. I know I should and I suck at it, but that's the point, my blog is my freedom wall and I shall enjoy my grammatically incorrect sentences! I may get a lot of hate for it, but *flips hair* I type what I like. Whenever I blog, I usually just type away. I literally just think of a topic and start typing. I don't have to check everything, I just have to share my thoughts, but if I actually want to create a nice book, I have to check and recheck everything. I would even be asking people to read and check it for me.

3. It's a long process. Writing a book will require months. If you didn't already know, I am a college student who have tons of interest. My main problem with writing a book is the time. I intend to give it as much of my free time as possible, maybe even write chapters while waiting for a class or something, but I can't guarantee as much time as I would like. This writing process will definitely push me to my limits. I welcome it though because I enjoy a good challenge.

4. I'm worried I may not be able to maintain the emotions I want to portray. Since this will be a long writing process, I'm worried about how I'd feel about what I'm writing in the future. I mean, there are certain situations wherein I pour my heart out when typing, and if I continue it at a later time I may not feel the same and ruin the moment. It hasn't happened to me yet and I'm already worried. Slap me?

5. I enjoy pouring my heart out!  I love what I'm doing right now. I am passionate about the story I am writing and whenever I type about something I really relate to, I just have these little pinches in my chest. I feel like I'm divulging a little bit of myself in the pages and I really hope people would see and understand it. My future readers will know about how I really think of certain situations and how I felt at times. I can see why authors love to write. It's very liberating even if what you're writing is fiction. What I'm writing is fiction, but I always try and pour my heart out. I think the book in the making will contain a piece of the author no matter how impossible the story is.

6. I love it! I just love the thought of writing and people reading what I write. It's one of the many reasons I've started to blog. It's not always about how fun it would be if people shared the same opinions, but actually speaking out about something you're interested in. I believe in and love how people have different opinions on certain topics and I enjoy reading and understanding how they see the world. I love how I get to create a story people may or may not like. Writing gives me some sort of peace. It also allows me to somehow live vicariously through the characters in the story. The story may not always have those perfect characters and may experience really bad stuff, but oh the spice of life! It's similar to when reading a book, you sort of get to live in another world. You won't always want to live vicariously through some characters, but you get to entertain yourself with it or give your life a little more excitement through it.

Well that's it! The current things I realized. By the way, I'll be doing not so daily blogs, even though they wouldn't all revolve around books, boys and food. Follow me if you'd like to receive updates about my posts and Thank you for reading! xo~

Publisher: Unknown - 6:15 AM